Phisically and mentally my strength is decline

Mental strength decline caused no desire to write.  I have a hard time corresponding with my friends even.  My poor blog had stopped  3 months ago??!!

Even though we still have riding and walking regularly, our energy and endurance definitely declined and it takes a lot of time to recover from each event.

Why?  I can't sleep well or deeply as I used to.  In my case it take quite a time to get to sleep.

Anyway I bike, walk, paint, play recorder and piano, and do gardening.  So it's not really the end, but it is coming gradually.

I still need to clean out one room of junk.  Hope I will be better when I finish it.

The fox showed up on the deck when I was playing recorder with my friend.

I can't believe myself!

In spite of weeks long foot pain I was going to join the group hike to cheer myself up or get my confidence back.  But I wrote down the wrong date on my calendar somehow.  I still couldn't find any reason.  And the wrong date is tomorrow and the hiking event has already finished 2 days ago!!

I'm so sad, and I'm so embarrassed.

We've been thinking about something seriously lately which is very stressful.  Maybe that's why I had such an unbelievable mistake.  I really need to watch out for myself.

We haven't walked for 11 days.  We walked in twilight.  The sunset sky was pretty.

Pushing myself from the trauma

That was a long silence.  I just couldn't write ...  I just don't want to talk about my trauma, because it's not fun.  So I started writing what I thought next, I mean now.

Just living the time in front of me as fully as possible.

Well, we got worn out and couldn't pedal so much for a while.  We were in bad condition.  So we started walking at least.

This is our walking and biking blog now on.

I was almost going to give up biking, because it was so depressing to see that I can't pedal long enough.  
Surprisingly, after struggling with walking more often, the strength came back a little by little.

Thank goodness.  

New strategy didn't work when..

We had a hot night all the way 'till almost midnight, that made me crazy with interrupted sleep.
Then we waited too long to cool off at night, unfortunately we stayed too late, which sent us back to our old habit. 
We can't get enough energy to ride, so we just did gardening which is not easy either.  Pathetic.... agrrrrrr..

At least the roses seem happier, and raggedy looking Gazania were gone so I felt better.  And at least I sweated some from the work.  Exhausting.....

Hot, steamy, hot, steamy, hot, hot....  😞😬😒

Only the Vole in our garden is extremely energetic, persistently using the same hole and going and back no matter how I destroyed it by filling it back.

Avoid getting sick from the weird weather

The strange severe migraine has attacked me for 5 days.  And I learned that I need to sweat when it's hot.  If I avoid it too much, I will get sick.  But I can't go out in severe hot temperature either.

So finally we, night owls had to change our life style completely.  

We get up between 6 am and 7:30 am, and try bicycling in cool air.

But we got stressed out during the day time, we gained a lot of weight.  Now especially I have to be on a diet under such difficult conditions right now. 

At least I tried to sweat some during the day, after meals.

When the temperature hits about 90 F, I just can't go out.  Since the heat caused my migraine last time, I got scared. 

We just cut the distance for riding bicycle.
And changed the pillow direction, it helped us for better sleeping.

Roses in our garden are tougher than us.

We lost the passion.

The passion to ride together different places as many as we can.  Recently we are passion-less about everything, except eating and sleeping maybe.
Because any activity made us tired so that we are discouraged to do anything which needs our energy.

I have to think about something new, or find some new way to think.  

Give us energy and passion!